in which i mark "return to sender" every package of anger that has showed up as of late

i will not carry a cross
for you anymore.
two years was four
too many.

Monosonnet with Parenthetical

When
Holland
Taylor
Slapped
My
Mother
I
Thought

(or perhaps realized, for the first time, that I'd always wanted to do that myself, but I was so small and she was my model for God, authority, and the nature of what I should become, and the fact that a child had slapped this mountain this monarch over something so trivial when I had good reason but had always held back shook basements of thinking, made me quake in my small jelly sandals, planted some kind of seed in my guts until finally the day came when I no longer had any buttons left unpushed and the world went grave-dark and silent and when it came back there stood the woman who was my first home but her face had been punched and my fist was singing its loudest, highest notes, and all i could think was how neither of us had told the other "i love you" in years)

I
Should
Have
Done
That
First.

Synonyms for Pleasure

Synonyms for Pleasure:

BRIE.
My long arms and the way they reach so many things,
the way they move me through water,
water.
The sound of the ocean with its solid teeth, its
stoic feet, its cheekbones, its eternal change.
Rooftops.
The wild wind in my hair, the distance
between people, between places, the electric
geography of absense.
My dog when he snores.
The songs of crickets,
the syrup of memory,
the chlorine cologne of the hotel pool at
the birthday party, the family reunion.  The year
you learn you can't possibly ever learn everything,
the smell of sun-soaked skin.
Wisteria, honeysuckle, magnolia, mimosa.
Your sleeping breath.
Avocados.
The smell of your scalp.
Mangoes.
Your loveless arms and the day
they pushed me away.